I've been trying to start up another dating profile, though I have really no idea why. I've only realized that I shouldn't really be looking for a relationship right now, unless I fine someone that meshes with me magically it's not going to happen. I keep looking to my past relationships that I was comfortable in, and trying to identify what didn't work there and if it's worth seeking out another relationship like that. I think it's just a matter of finding someone who I can feel that physical connection with, and it's strange because even in the two instances that I'm missing I was automatically attracted to one the first time, and the other I hated the first time and decided to give them a second chance.
I'm being vague and my communications skills right now are poor. I just need to vent.
I'm at work, and I'm feeling pretty vacant. People trying to talk to me on skype are getting ignored which is leading one woman (I stress woman, 29 years old, married, mother of two) to think I hate her, and she is posted really passive aggressive stuff about real friends and fake friends and I know it must be directed at me. I'm trying not to get upset, I don't want her mad at me or upset thinking that it's HER I don't like but she posted it all after I said "I just don't feel like talking, don't take it personally." I don't need attitude coming from a woman whom I've always been kind to. and I don't want to talk about my problems to her either because she just apologizes and makes it about herself. It's not about her, she doesn't have to say "I'm sorry, I wish I could help" one more time, because after a while it looses it's effects.
ON A GOOD NOTE.
Yesterday I went yard sale-ing and bought one of those big Stanly Thermoses for only 3 bucks, retail new is around 33 dollars and the vintage ones have gone for 50 on ebay. I was going to sell it but since I'm working at the orchard this year I'm going to get it and keep it for soup or coffee (coffee with some vodka in it maybe) I also bought a coffee mug that has tiger print on it and inside it says 'Hold that tiger!" I don't know why it doesn't make any sense but I've been laughing for a thousand years every time I look at it so it's already been worth the 50 cents.
After that I went to an open house at a gym in the city where my friend Daisy was hosting a hoop yoga, so I went to that, and it was a lot of fun, the first time I had hooped in a while, I just wish it was outside, but I did a lot of tricks on my first try after not really doing them for like a year, so that was really good. It was a good work out for me and then my sister came over and we made sangria and played trivial pursuit, I made a new friend at the hoop thing and I'm hanging out with her Monday, it was probably the best day I've had in a while and I can't wait for school to end this semester so I can get out and do more things for the summer!